Watch this!

My mom and I watched this this last weekend. It's hilarious and ridiculous all at the same time!

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Awesome

WHAT WHAT!!

I have watched everything I've eaten this week, unfortunately I haven't been able to go to the gym, but I have managed to lose a whopping THREE POINT ONE POUNDS!!!! Sure it could be water weight, whatever, but i'm taking it and I'm proud to say that I am back in the 180's!!!

stuffed sausage anyone?

That's what I feel like today, and most days recently. I feel like a stuffed sausage. My newest clothes are starting to feel a tad snug and it's pissing me off actually. Yesterday I realized that the month we had planned on starting... something... is quickly approaching, so it's down to business!! I have GOT to lose at least 15 pounds, 20 would be better, in the next few months. I'm giving it all I've got for the next 2 months, that's not a lot of time, I can totally stay strong for that long, and then I can slow down a little, but of course keep working at it. Dawn gave some good advice today, "ONE pound at a time and ONE meal at a time," which duh, I know. But it really is important to remember that and it really helps!! Especially when you look at the total that you need to lose, it can sometimes feel unreachable. But I can totally lose one pound and eat one healthy meal at a time. Thanks Dawn!

And did ya notice? I lost .5 this week!! HA! It's something, not much, but it gives me hope.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

Sorry for the disturbance in my posts. I recently got a new job and haven't had time to post.

But now down to business.

HOW, have I let myself gain almost TEN POUNDS?! HOW?! What was I thinking?! Why am I self sabotaging.

This week I started working out in the morning. And I'm actually doing Corinne's routines, early in the morning. It's hard. I'm not a morning person. And that's a lot of movement for 7 am. But I've decided it's the best thing to do right now. So that all sounds great right? Well it would be great if I could STOP EATING. I have been starving throughout the days, and at night, I pretty much eat whatever I can get my hands on. Therefore negating all my hard work that I woke up so early for. So today I got on the scale. I've know that I've been flirting with the 190's again. But I didn't realize I was actually back in them! This morning I weighed 190.5. That's right. The last time I wrote down my weight I was 184.9. But I had weighed unofficially and had hit 182.9, which was my 40 pound loss mark. So now I'm up, a lot!

So today I got back on Sparkpeople and wrote down everything I am eating, and tomorrow I will go grocery shopping so I can start eating healthy again, and get all this stupid weight off me. I'm so disappointed in myself. I also took my measurements, I've gained 7.75 inches total since November. YUCK. So now that I've got the working out thing going really well, I have to get the eating thing down. And I'm going to. Next week I will be loving the 180's again. Even if it is 189.9. I will be 160 by this summer.

Eh, forget NyQuil, give me some codeine

NyQuil really doesn't cut it when you have a hacking cough. But cough syrup with codeine, now that's some pretty good stuff. Ok, not really. I still woke up about every 4 hours trying to cough up my lungs, but it did better than NyQuil. Last night was the first night in a week that I have slept straight through. I woke up earlier than normal because of the cough, but it wasn't 1.30, or 2.30 or, 3.30 or 4.30, like the past few nights, so I was pretty happy. Maybe tonight I can make it without taking any medicine at all. Maybe...

Today was supposed to be my big back to the grind day. And by grind, I mean gym. But with the stress of starting a new job, I decided I didn't feel like going. So I came home so I could blog. I'm not as freely able to mess around at my new place. So basically I made an excuse to not go. But this is the last one. I just have to make it through this week. I just have to go everyday from here until Saturday and I will be back in the groove. It's always the starting back up that's the hardest. So wish me luck.

Nyquil take me away....

I'm so sick. I've been sick since Thursday, and now it's getting worse. Now I have a cough that won't let me sleep, well, my favorite little red bottle helps me sleep, but in order to not cough throughout the night, I have to sleep sitting up. Yeah, it's as comfy as it sounds. So not only do I have a killer cough, stuffy nose, headache, body aches, but now my back is sore from my sleeping posture. UGH, I hate being sick. Oh, and the worst part... In the mornings I get to cough up all the nasty green phlegm in my chest, and that's fun. So needless to say, I have not worked out at all. Nor have I really worried about what I'm eating. I'm not eating horribly, but I'm not really paying attention. I'm just too tired and sick to care right now.

And I'm pretty sure if I keep coughing like I am, the other designers here are going to ask me to go home. I would love to go home, but I don't have any more sick time and I already took 2 unpaid days this pay period, so I can't afford to take another. Man, I hate this cold.

I'm baaaaack!

That's right ladies, I'm back from my lovely vacation to my parent's house in Southern California. While I was there, the same question kept coming back to me... "Why do I live in Utah?" Especially when the weather is nearly perfect in CA. We went to the beach on Christmas (we always do, but this year we didn't have to bundle up! It was perfect) We sat in the sun, went to Santa Barbara, slept, ahhhh, we had such a nice break!

Now, you might be wondering how my eating and working out went? Well, why would you ask such a stupid question?!! It was HORRIBLE! I ate whatever I wanted and didn't think about it. I went for a few walks, but when I really tried to go get some actually physical activity, my parent's pulled the old "You're only going to be here a few more days, don't you want to go to eat at that really good place instead?" Yeah, I fell for it. It's ok, I'm back. I'm back in my old routine and will be sticking to it. I WILL lose those last 20 pounds, even if it's 25 pounds now. (I'm too scared to check, I'm going to give it a week or 2 before I weigh).

As I am wasting time reading blogs, instead of working, I am noticing that many people are posting their goals for the year. I don't like making new goals for the year. I never have. I thinks it's lame (not that the goals people are making are lame, I just don't like doing it myself). So I'm not going to do that. But I do have a goal, can you guess what it is? Yup, lose the weight. I've watched those Jenny Craig commercials with Valerie Burtineli saying she isn't going to resolve to lose weight this year. Wouldn't that be nice. Maybe next year... hopefully!