WHAT WHAT!!

I have watched everything I've eaten this week, unfortunately I haven't been able to go to the gym, but I have managed to lose a whopping THREE POINT ONE POUNDS!!!! Sure it could be water weight, whatever, but i'm taking it and I'm proud to say that I am back in the 180's!!!

stuffed sausage anyone?

That's what I feel like today, and most days recently. I feel like a stuffed sausage. My newest clothes are starting to feel a tad snug and it's pissing me off actually. Yesterday I realized that the month we had planned on starting... something... is quickly approaching, so it's down to business!! I have GOT to lose at least 15 pounds, 20 would be better, in the next few months. I'm giving it all I've got for the next 2 months, that's not a lot of time, I can totally stay strong for that long, and then I can slow down a little, but of course keep working at it. Dawn gave some good advice today, "ONE pound at a time and ONE meal at a time," which duh, I know. But it really is important to remember that and it really helps!! Especially when you look at the total that you need to lose, it can sometimes feel unreachable. But I can totally lose one pound and eat one healthy meal at a time. Thanks Dawn!

And did ya notice? I lost .5 this week!! HA! It's something, not much, but it gives me hope.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

Sorry for the disturbance in my posts. I recently got a new job and haven't had time to post.

But now down to business.

HOW, have I let myself gain almost TEN POUNDS?! HOW?! What was I thinking?! Why am I self sabotaging.

This week I started working out in the morning. And I'm actually doing Corinne's routines, early in the morning. It's hard. I'm not a morning person. And that's a lot of movement for 7 am. But I've decided it's the best thing to do right now. So that all sounds great right? Well it would be great if I could STOP EATING. I have been starving throughout the days, and at night, I pretty much eat whatever I can get my hands on. Therefore negating all my hard work that I woke up so early for. So today I got on the scale. I've know that I've been flirting with the 190's again. But I didn't realize I was actually back in them! This morning I weighed 190.5. That's right. The last time I wrote down my weight I was 184.9. But I had weighed unofficially and had hit 182.9, which was my 40 pound loss mark. So now I'm up, a lot!

So today I got back on Sparkpeople and wrote down everything I am eating, and tomorrow I will go grocery shopping so I can start eating healthy again, and get all this stupid weight off me. I'm so disappointed in myself. I also took my measurements, I've gained 7.75 inches total since November. YUCK. So now that I've got the working out thing going really well, I have to get the eating thing down. And I'm going to. Next week I will be loving the 180's again. Even if it is 189.9. I will be 160 by this summer.